Violet Holt has already met Death once.
After a failed suicide attempt, she finds herself dumped by her callous mother on the doorstep of her family’s desolate oceanside estate. With only the company of her estranged grandmother, comatose grandfather, and the monsters in her head, at least there was no one to interfere with her plans to try again on her eighteenth birthday.
No one, except maybe Jack: a skeleton of a boy who says he’s there to rake her grandmother’s leaves, yet seems more experienced at stalking than grounds-keeping. She knows he’s keeping a secret behind his gentle smiles and aloofness, but it’s difficult for Violet to be put off by his untimely thin-air appearances when figuring out the mystery of his true identity makes for such a good distraction.
Violet’s trauma is deeper than the wound on her wrist though, and it cannot be simply whisked away in a whirlwind of guessing games and pleasant gestures. She struggles to reconnect with her grandmother, find forgiveness for her mother, and closure with her grandfather’s dire condition, all while battling the strain of it all on her family. Even with a flicker of something hopeful blossoming within herself, Violet knows her birthday plans must be inevitable.
Death wouldn’t be there for her if it wasn’t.
Love, family, death. Finding the hope inside and discovering the strength from within.
I wasn’t sure how I would feel about this book, given its obvious trigger warnings and dark themes, but this book is everything! It’s everything I didn’t know I needed and more.
Violet is the sister I never had, my kindred spirit. I felt such a strong connection to her and her mental health, I could have been reading about myself! I felt every second of her pain and anguish and wept along with her. I also felt her spirit lift once Jack was on the scene and I fell in love with the boy too. Jack is the guy every girl needs – he listens, he’s caring, he makes you feel good and he actively tried to solve those problems. He reminded me of my Thomas and that is ALWAYS a good thing.
The story dives straight into Violet’s issue’s with life from the offset, so you have the chance to run away and hide if need be – it isn’t sugar coated. I myself love how open the author is with mental health and found it extremely relateable. Violet’s problematic relationship with her mother is quite similar to my own experience, minus the boyfriends. My mum never saw the issue as MY issue, it was a burden and something I was doing or did to hurt her. It’s a selfish way of thinking and it’s because she didn’t understand or she didn’t want to. Violet’s story was incredibly comforting for me as a person who has been through depression and suicide and I honestly can’t thank the author enough for writing about these issue’s in such earnest and with such passion!
Although the story is really sad and has quite a morbid theme, it also has much more to it. It’s about family and forgiveness and letting go to move on for the better. It’s about how one person can change your entire outlook on the world and help you become the person you deserve to be. It’s heartbreaking and beautiful and the writing is utterly stunning.
I found so much happiness from reading this book and also learnt a few things about myself. The ending almost finished me off, but I know it’s just how it had to be, no matter how much I want it to be different.
If you’re wondering whether to read this, don’t. Just read it!
‘A flower smothered by the winter snow seems defeated as well, but it always blooms again, bigger and stronger than before.’
About The Author
Danielle Koste is a born and raised Canadian, but currently lives with her significant other in the equally snowy and cold Stockholm, Sweden. While working a day job and learning the language of the locals, she spends her free time honing the craft she’s always had a passion for.
When procrastinating, Danielle likes to enjoy other forms of rich story-telling, besides the obvious abundance of novels filling up her apartment and Kindle. Movies, music, and video games are among her favourite time-wasters.
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Find The Book
The book is due for release 25th September 2018 – you can preorder now!
I want to thank Danielle SO much for sending me an early copy in return for an honest review. You are incredible!
The book releases on 25th September 2018!
I hope you enjoyed my review and if you pick it up PLEASE let me know your thoughts, I’d really love to know!
Until next time ❣